10/19/2021
10/18/2021
Famous Last Words
This is my new cartoon debut. It's based on a game I used to play way back when. Not ready to give out all those details just yet. Anyhow there are times in life that the elements come together and create a little gem. In rockhounding there is a term called a leaverite. Basically someone finds a rock and they ask "what is this?" The response is "That's a leaverite' (meaning leave 'er right there).
The basis of this cartoon is odd things I've heard people say that perfectly summed up how they presented themselves to the world. Also those favorite parts, from a movie, a book, or a song, a fragment that stays with you. Like a sparkle that draws your eye to a place. I don't know if I'll be inspired to make more, who knows...
10/16/2021
Spinach quiche
https://www.onceuponachef.com/recipes/spinach-quiche.html#tabbox
I made this and am happy with the result. I also learned if you put egg on the exposed pie crust it keeps it from burning.
Update: Oct 29, 2021
I made this recipe today using 4 egg whites. It turned out good.
10/09/2021
10/05/2021
Wanting the reaction, but not the conversation...?
Yesterday a trip to the store. A man was agitated having to wait in line. He was making loud comments trying to get the other customers to join in his dissatisfaction at having to wait. No one reacted. While I was putting my cart away he went to his vehicle which was parked next to the cart returned. He said the squeaky wheel gets the grease. The conversation that followed was chaotic and contradictory. He started talking about his boss and how smart he is because he assumes everyone is lazy. I said he sounds like an asshole. He said "well here we are, God bless you" What didn't make sense is how this guy was aggressive and opinionated, but allowed himself to be subjected to a boss, that demanded full throttle employees. What stuck with me after the encounter is how abrasive, and noncommital communicating is in California. It has the cadence of now! now! now! hurry up do something, okay that's enough stop bothering me. After all that nothing is said, no conclusions can be drawn. It leaves one feeling like they should check for their wallet, or see what time and date it is, like you've experienced a mothership abduction. It leaves one with a horrifying feeling like being suddenly traumatized. I can say with certainty trying to slow down the exchange brings about more catastrophic details that lessen the chance of finding the truth. Especially when getting to the truth the charade must first play out its course. I watch this cycle repeatedly. People get stuck in their charade, it comforts them. Like hiding under a blanket from the monster under the bed. If you can't see it, it can't see you.
9/30/2021
Day of the Dead Armadillo at Winco
I usually check out the holiday decoration to see what is trending. First time I've seen a holiday armadillo.
9/26/2021
9/23/2021
9/11/2021
9/09/2021
Military vehicle accident on the 215
Just up the road, South from where this truck flipped is an energy vortex. I learned about it years ago.
9/07/2021
9/05/2021
When will it be realized
The answer you are seeking, with a question you don't ask, created your delusional thinking.
9/04/2021
Aug 28 2021 about 9am a street sweeper turned around in front of my place. It sounded like it was running badly, like a few dead cylinders. A street sweeper on a dirt road was odd so I remembered the incident. A youngish female passenger babbled in the passenger seat. A older male driving. Last evening around 7pm a silver pickup with a matching shell turned around in front of my place. The same couple the same mannerisms in a different vehicle.
Another vehicle drove by several times windows down music playing. The driver hit the brakes in shock seeing a person standing watching him drive by.
Neighbor looking over the fence into my yard. When questioned said because a lost cat.
9/01/2021
Social engineered news and televised imaginary reality
When I watch television. I process the presentation and nothing ever is resolved as the truth. Creating characters that could be viewed as normal everyday people. Falls flat on me because of my life experience with people. I never see the actual human nature acted out. Is it bad acting?or bad writing? The one thing that is for certain, none of it is truth. Is it possibly a reenactment?. I don't believe that. A creative writing experiment is how it comes across. By the talent show winner who's sister was friend's with the judge.
If actual people stories were being presented we'd see the unscripted dirty secrets of humans struggling their way through life. We would see the absolute desperation. How people really act, I can guarantee is never part of the social engineer math equation. The x and y variables are the manipulation. Not actual human nature, but the desired result is built into the problem. Monkey see monkey do, lead by example, a suggestion.
8/30/2021
Bible verse New American Standard Bible
1 John 3:13
Do not be surprised, brothers and sisters, if the world hates you.
See the human kindness
At 2:04 begins the incident. How the guys around him react is remarkable. They help him up and give him another try.
Check this out:
Pretend like the people waiting in line are burgers on a grill cooking. If the cook only tended to the left side of the grill the right side would have burned. Setting off the alarm. The customer who is yelling is the alarm.
When faced with fire and an alarm, most people would first try to put out a fire. To focus solely on stopping the alarm and let the fire burn I don't think would be the typical response.
***notice he says if I drive my car...and I was just walking by. Makes this encounter questionable***
8/27/2021
Pattern verification
Noticing how people operate from a framework. The mental dilemma comes out, but the person trapped within the performance believes their insecurities are undetectable. Because the framework creates their stage and is built to showcase desired reactions. The reality is verified by reactions. Verifying reactions based on the people who are susceptible, gives a false sense of certainty. Being certain this reality is real seems to be important more important than truth. If truth becomes an obstacle that needs to be concealed. What follows is the established pattern of delusion. It brings comfort to the deluded because it appears to confirm, like the framework that has been built, a reality.
8/25/2021
Safety. Hazard.
Went into Hemet Monday night. The new median on Hwy 74, has created a few road hazards. People strolling across the lanes, not in a hurry. I think they feel safe because the center island. Two seperate incidents of people dressed in dark clothes casually crossing a dark highway. The other hazard; cars driving on the shoulder toward oncoming traffic with their headlights off. I'm thinking they were taking the short cut home so they don't have to go to the median turn out which is a 1/4 mile up the road from their driveway. Turning off the headlights so they don't look like they are a wrong way driver (ahem).
8/19/2021
Balancing the imbalance
The address on our fence had one of the numbers hanging upside down because a nail fell out. It has been hanging upside for the past several months. This week someone bent the upside down number to wedge it into place so it stays upright. They must have drove by one too many times and it was bugging them so they had to fix the imbalance.
8/17/2021
Dragonflies
Had 25ish dragonflies flying about this morning. Birds flying over. I even noticed an emerald figeater beetle. I heard its slow stead hum. Next I get a phone call from SCE (power co.) saying we are experiencing a power outage at this address. Next I got an email detailing the outage, but the power never went off.
8/14/2021
8/13/2021
Nature speaking
Last night my son heard an owl hooting. It was loud and consistent. He went outside to look for the owl. When he got outside he notice dark smoke on the ridge line. The smoke...I look on the Riv Co fire incidents website to see the location. There wasn't a listing for this area. I called the local fire dept. To see if anyone reported it yet. No one had called in. My call alerted them there was a fire. I thought it was interesting because it was the owl making a racket near my son's window. He went out because of the owl. Nature looking out and communicating. It took on a spiritual aspect when I found out no one else had called in to report the fire.
8/11/2021
Reptile eyeball cabachon (planter jewelry)
What I did with one of the cabachon eyeball's.
I suppose I could call it planter jewelry.
The frog is basking in the glow of the protective eyeball.
The plants seem to like it.
Armadillo Oompah-pah
I drew a picture of an Armadillo who became an accordion, to play lively music.
Liars want to get caught to keep lying
When a person lies efficiently and people believe the lies. The liar feels the emptiness and needs to create a scenario to get caught. The liar getting caught isn't what they are seeking. The liar wants to fill the emptiness. Using the lie creates a false sense of human interaction, the emptiness remains. Why is that? The liar wants to be able to continue lying.
8/10/2021
What denial creates
She started speaking. Relaying information. It was like an update. Just the highlights of a recent event. It was a one sided conversation. It didn't have any of the hi, how are you's. It wasn't a conversation. It was never a conversation. It is like how people talk to a person in a coma. Spending time but not relating to a person. That is how her family dealt with her. Not because there was a physical or mental health condition. There had always been a disconnect. The lingering effects of deep denial. The many failed attempts at trying to break through the invisible wall. Each failed attempt seemed to reinforce the denial. Making it seem believable. That was the goal, believability and not having to admit to feeling loneliness, fear, abandonment. The denial kept the emotions from forming into sensations.
Thoughts produced by sleeping
I was asked if I've ever used a personal ad to meet someone. I said no. The convo included several people. A few were laughing about an unheard joke. I was trying to collect my belongs to leave. One of the people involved needed a ride home. Out of nowhere a person requires I leave immediately with them and my next realization is I'm walking though a poorly lit mall. Without being able to see the natural world outside I couldn't orient to the time of day, or the season. I headed toward what seemed like brightness but it didn't reveal an exit. I walked back toward a dark corridor. Found the door to the outside. Like a typical dream moving around and being here or there doesn't always follow a chronological order. Somehow I ended up where I started with a different group of people talking about familiar topics that seemed to make sense, but I didn't know any of the people. I got word about the person I was supposed to give a ride to, was waiting at a restuarant, that had recently moved to a new location. It was daytime but there was no traffic. The restuarant was on what seemed to be an old farm on a dirt room. I found a place to park but couldn't find the entrance. I walked up a staircase thinking if I had an overview I could get a better perspective. It wasn't helpful. When I tried to go down the stairs I was blocked by two humongous cows. I climbed over the rail and jumped to the path I figured would lead to the entrance. When I turned the corned I was at the back of the building. I decided to leave. While driving on the dirt road I noticed a rock cluster. It looked like a drawing, that was outlined with thick lines around the pile of rocks but it didn't have a framed border of where that image ended and the natural world began. An adjustment to the eyes and the thought process to realize it was strange and impossible.
The dream seemed to be about me not knowing people and places. The familiar topics and places. The people seem like people I know, but I really don't know them for various reasons. Me trying to comply with strange demands that have no purpose. Places that don't have usable or accesible features. Tasks that don't begin or end just left with a feeling of unending uncertainty, and unsolved requirements.
8/09/2021
8/07/2021
A metal pole
This story is layers of information that create more questions.
It first caught my attention when it mentioned the guy came back with a metal pole. While driving through San Bernardino years ago. I saw a guy chase and attack someone with a metal pole in a liquor store parking lot. It was like watching a low budget martial arts movie. I think it was an aluminum tent pole. So that is one type of metal pole. The other type of metal pole would be a Pollack who likes heavy metal. The visual of the guy being told to leave and later comes back with a heavy metal Polish dude, and he gets shot by an armed security guard hired to protect a diner. A diner. Where people buy cheeseburgers and fries. He probably asked to use the bathroom. The story goes on to say he was in a wheelchair, but could spontaneously be healed and walk like he had Benny Hinn on speed dial. In all seriousness the guy was shot and died, a wild ending. A metal pole. \m/ \m/
8/06/2021
8/05/2021
Pondering the recipe review
I was reading recipe comments to see if anyone had ingredient substitution ideas on a recipe. Some of the people commenting poured out their feelings into their review. One shared the recipe reminded her of a meal she had on an airplane. Another spoke longingly of wishing she could have added the jalapenos, but because of her children, she would never know that spicy deliciousness. Another told of how she put the dish together before church. One pointed out the proportions of the ingredients, saying it would be like looking for a needle in a haystack to find the main ingredient because of the 4 bell peppers on the list.
Most of the comments were about pleasing a husband, or a family gobbling up the meal. The comments tinged with memories or resentments, made me wonder if the writers were real people, or writers using the forum to develop a character idea. So I thought of what character I could develop using the recipe review.
The suicidal comedian. This will be my last meal. If I time this right my autopsy stomach content reveal will look like a kaleidoscope.
8/03/2021
7/30/2021
Today's quote by me
Inspired by an email conversation with my dear friend.
We are talking about being who we are. Laughing about the bizarre stories we've been told by pathological liars we've known. Updating our past selves with the wisdom of our current selves.
Here is the quote:
"Why waste a wish on the past."
7/28/2021
Monday drive to Riverside
Monday I went for a trip out of town. While waiting for the red light. The driver of a truck in front of us tossed an empty coffee cup out the window into the bed of the truck. It flew up turned over and stuck lid down on top of the cab roof. The man was watching to see the cup pass the back window. When he didn't he got out to investigate. It was too far over for him to reach from his side and the passenger wasn't budging. He got back in and pulled the truck to the shoulder. He found a stick to flip it into the bed. When we passed I said out the window. That awesome how it landed. He smiled and went back to his life.
It looked like it had a magnet inside the cup how to hit and gripped to the metal.
7/27/2021
The written Incongruent emotional display
reading between the lines of the visual that is created in the written word.
7/25/2021
In their blind spot
The relationship ended, it's an all too familiar experience. Everything going along fine until I step into their blind spot. If I speak about what I see in their blind spot the chaos is created. If I try to speak quickly I'm told to calm down, If I try to speak plainly I'm told I'm seeking attention, and quickly ignored. If I present it as humor, I'm called crazy. If I say nothing, I'm called difficult. Is there a way to create the space for a meaningful conversation to happen. I don't think it is impossible, or even rare. I just happen to notice it most in people when it exists, but not when it doesn't.
7/24/2021
FDA reads from the "Grinch that Stole Christmas" "...his heart grew three sizes that day"
FDA expects to move quickly to add the warning after the meeting concludes.
The cases of heart inflammation appear to be notably higher in the week after the second vaccine dose and in males.
7/23/2021
7/18/2021
Spat
Nike Sues Apex One Over Trademark
RICHARD GREEN January 10, 1994
Article source: https://apnews.com/
https://apnews.com/article/863a3be7c0d538cbc6f218f96380c575
PORTLAND, Ore. (AP) _ Nike has filed a false advertising and trademark infringement lawsuit against Apex One, alleging NFL players under contract to the New Jersey shoe manufacturer are pasting that company’s logo on Nike shoes.
Nike, in a lawsuit filed Friday in U.S. District Court in New Jersey, claims that Apex One is providing stickers of its logo to its contract players in the NFL. Nike says many players wear Nike shoes but place stickers on the shoes to make them look like Apex footwear.
Use of such stickers, called ″spatting,″ has become common practice, said Keith Peters, a spokesman for Beaverton, Ore.-based Nike.
″What’s apparent is that some of the players who are being paid by Apex would prefer to wear our shoes,″ Peters said. ″I guess it’s because they prefer the way our shoes perform.″
Apex called the suit without merit.
″After reviewing Nike’s complaint, the issues relative to spatting and painting logos on tape are, quite frankly, too insignificant for us to respond to,″ said Apex chief executive officer Joseph Kirchner.
″Given Nike’s recent economic performance, one would expect that Nike would have greater concerns than what a few NFL players allegedly have on their feet,″ he said.
Apex spokesman David Venneri said he knew of no instance when a player under contract to Apex used the company’s stickers on Nike shoes.
Apex is the official supplier of football shoes to the NFL. Nike and Reebok have agreements as authorized suppliers. That means no team can have more than 10 players with recognizable Nike logos on their shoes in any given game. Reebok also can have 10. Apex can have the rest.
In 1991, the same federal court ordered Apex One to not allow its players to alter Nike shoes. That case arose late in the 1991 season when Jim Kelly of the Buffalo Bills altered his Nike shoes with an Apex One sticker, Peters said.
Photographs of NFL play obtained by Nike show that sticker alteration has taken place. He said Nike shoes are so distinctive that it is easy to tell them from Apex shoes despite the sticker.
The new lawsuit against Apex seeks $1 million in punitive damages, another cease and desist order and an unspecified share of any Apex profits.
NFL Properties sent a notice to general managers earlier this year warning that the only spatted logo that would be allowed would be the one that belongs to the shoe’s manufacturer.
7/17/2021
Archway, arcade
Arches the story I was told of how the arch developed in human history, It was said to be a gradual process. However it makes much more sense that knowledge is a simultaneous event. That way it can activate emotions. Envy, greed, fear, rage, justice, fairness, reason. The idea of hiding knowledge only to be discovered by the worthy. Is it true anyone can manifest anything, by any means? What is worthwhile or worthy? If it doesn't matter and anyone can manifest anything there is no need to lie.
To some lying is what makes gravity function, to tell the truth would cause them to float out into space and vanish. The most peculiar are the lies told by those who claim to worry about the wrath of God.
The arch creates a boundaried space for the purpose of remembering something? Something that was already in existence? How to create something that is already there? Remembering after being forgotten?
7/15/2021
Reality sharing is complex but not impossible.
The setting for a shared reality. Trust is a major factor, being able to trust, being trustworthy.
Next is the quality of the reality. Different people have different needs to consider calling something real.
Trying to create an environment that cultivates reality sharing.
Talking to the lie. Accepting a person's lies to help them live within the reality they have for you can facilitate getting to the topics that need to be resolved. Like why they need to lie. Most relationships don't get past this phase. It is such a rare occurrence, I think the average human life span isn't long enough for most people to come to terms with themselves.
7/13/2021
7/11/2021
Nature in the real world, of a spiritual nature
On the way out of town earlier today. We saw a deer, mom and baby in the trees planted along the roadside. It felt spiritual, because it isn't common place to see deer in the area. The mom looked like she in the process of standing after resting in the shade. On the drive back through on the way home. I could see how difficult it is to see something in that tree line. That is when I began to take on a spiritual meaning.
7/08/2021
Three's
Lying will get you:
An inability to reason, no growth. Lying will get you.
Nothing
Do you remember how this never happened? Do you remember? Because I remember nothing happening. I remember all the times nothing ever happened. Now you are saying it is my fault. You are wanting me to be responsible for nothing. You aren't saying that. In fact you aren't saying nothing. So here we are back to nothing. I did nothing
There is no equal =
Making it obvious there's a problem.
Making it impossible to solve.
Outside myself there is no connection.
People don't say things like that about me.
I'll never know what they see.
She is sad, she is angry, she is lonely. She is trying to get attention, she talks too much, she is too quiet. She needs to learn to sit still.
Do it my way or else. Or else? Yes I'll make up a lie you can't prove.
I'll ruin your favorite item. If I have to hit you I will. Or I'll get someone else to hit you.
Do it my way
solve the problem use the equal sign.
7/07/2021
7/01/2021
Shark bites Boy Scout
I saw a news item with an interview on ABC 7 Los Angeles. The troop was at Camp Emerald Bay. The news station interviewed the teen. He explained they were trying to catch up to the group of other kayakers by taking a short cut through an area thick with kelp. He said he felt like his paddle hit something solid. He looked into the water. Noticed his paddle was gone, and saw his hand was bleeding. Said "it looked pretty gnarly". The Troop is out of Riverside Calif. The first time I heard the song Baby Shark was at a Boy Scout event. I'm sure the Troop will be singing the Baby Shark song in memory of this Summer Camp.
6/28/2021
Frontier fixing the wires.
The pole was replaced in October of 2019.
20 months later the tangle of wires was dealt with.
6/23/2021
Insidious California Govenor laughs about man arrested for saying hello? (Protocols for humanity)
Newsom was on a trip to promote small businesses. As he walked into Beastmode Barbershop and Graffiti Pizza, he was”approached by an aggressive individual,” Fran Clader, communications manager for the California Highway Patrol (CHP), said in a statement.
“Members of the Governor’s security detail removed the Governor in the situation and the individual was arrested by CHP officers,” she continued.
Newsom did not appear to be injured, and colleagues didn’t see what happened, according to the East Bay Times. Reporters on the scene just saw the CHP, which offers security for your governor, detain the defendant. Newsom reportedly joked that”different people have different methods of saying hello,” according to the paper.
6/19/2021
Yes today, yesterday
When yes is used to be agreeable so the layers and depth of meaning can continue to expand. Being able to heal from the damage of confusion. Confusion created from envy, greed, lack of concern, and denial. Using yes to disagree with all that. Yes to acknowledging the problem, and at the moment becoming disagreeable by saying yes.
6/18/2021
The situation
Grieving the loss of people still living, that aren't interested in having a healthy relationship. Making it impossible to resolve even the simplest part of this relationship. It is me that is not being accepted. I'm letting go of trying to understand this.
6/17/2021
Unbelieveable
The certificate was withheld 3 years. Not sure why out of the blue the decision was made to send it now. Inside the package was an offer that expired in 2018. Everytime I think the bag of tricks is empty. Again I'm wrong there is a never ending supply of fucked up bullshittery.
6/14/2021
Police are looking for a man (Noahide Law)
The suspect approached a 30-year-old Jewish man and made threats and antisemitic comments to him, according to police.
No injuries were reported and the NYPD’s Hate Crime Task Force launched an investigation into the incident.
6/11/2021
When i put myself in someone elses shoes give it try next time you're at a thrift shop with used shoes
It's like I think the topic is about one thing. What is being heard in their head is alarm sirens *waa waa* security breach ego exposed *defend* *defend*...begin diversion assault
6/10/2021
Tracking the effects of a lie
A lie is told and the effects are monitored. If a person operating under the influence of a lie is monitored and discernable data retrieved, the conclusions have to account for the deception. This is the problem with human nature experiments. Trying to determine outcomes based on trickery. It doesn't include a place for the spiritual nature of humans.
The people running the experiment are afraid of the spiritual nature of humankind. That will never be written into the data reports. The data will remain classified not because it is sensitive data. The data is hidden to keep the deep primitive fear beneath the surface of those who run the experiment(s).
6/08/2021
if then else
When the government runs operations to control the populace. When the government ignores the fact it runs operations to control the populace it takes no responsibility for the troubles this model creates. The objective becomes clear. Create meaningless problems. Offer illusive solutions. Gather data, have products available on time for holiday festivities.
Computer language being used to program humans.
6/07/2021
predicting the ambiguity of foreknowledge
I didn't know what I was witnessing at the time these incidents happened. I still don't understand what I was being shown. Seperate occasions and involving different people. It is the similarities that I'm now remembering.
One instance I arrived at work went to put my belongings into the locker I happened to notice someone cleared out the refrigerator. At the top were several slices of pizza. I clocked in and went about my work day. I went on break, a coworker came into the break room and happily told me there is some pizza in the fridge. She was extremely happy telling me.
The other incident at a different work place. I noticed a coworker pulled a paper towel out of the trash can. He smoothed it out. I got distracted by something work related. Later the guy with the paper towel is offering to share slice of orange with me. It was sitting on a paper towel. Looked like the one he had removed from the trash can. He was very eager to share his snack.
One more story. I was at school. I had noticed someone had put leftover cake into the trash can next to a table in a common area outside the classroom. At break I noticed a guy eating the cake. He asked if wanted some.
Each time had I not seen the items first inside the trash can. I would have figured I was dealing with human kindness. Because of the common intial encounter (knowing where an item had been) I was forced into a thought dilemma. None of this was I prepared to deal with. I didn't know how to sort through the thoughts it brought up. Not only did the behavior repeat itself in different people. Each time I was shown the oddity very clearly.
6/03/2021
moon raker
Feeling like I'm in a different galaxy. One that doesn't share molecules with the galaxy where my physical body is located. I have no way to communicate with the life forms here.
6/02/2021
(GPS) global positioning system
I always thought this was a mapping and navigation system.
I've learned it is a generalized location system. In other words it gets you in the general area of a location. The systems that claim to pinpoint a location are as good as the data they use. For example looking for a physical address GPS will get to an area. Finding the location is dependent on specific and accurate data. It because obvious there is a problem when comparing delivery services. The USPS find addresses, UPS finds addresses. FedEx, Wal-Mart, and the numerous delivery services rely solely on GPS apps that get them into the general area. Even ignoring the posted address numbers for a physical address. The delivery service will leave a package in the general area. The fine tuning falls into the not my job, not my problem. Corporations will only communicate with the public through the court system. Delivery problems will continue in areas that don't have clarified coordinates.
6/01/2021
Social Engineering what purpose does it serve?
All social engineering operations have one goal. The purpose is to regulate commerce.